Our miracle!!!!!

Praise the Lord! He has given us our miracle and we saw proof today! We have one baby with one very strong heartbeat that we got to see and hear! We are due January 19th!! Thank you to everyone for your prayers and support. You have all truly been a blessing to us. You can see the miracle for yourself:

Strength...

Another great number today!!! 20,937! That baby is growing in there! Now we just get to wait for our ultra sound at the end of the week. Continue to pray that we see a nice, strong heartbeat! I have a verse written down and lying on my desk at work. It has given me the strength to get through these past two very long weeks. Everytime I start to get afraid, I read it. I now not only read it as God's promise to give me strength, but a promise to give my baby strength to grow as well...

Do not fear, for I am with you; do not anxiously look about you, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, surely I will help you, surely I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.
Isaiah 41:10

Another step...

I wanted to post right away because I know a lot of you are waiting to hear the results of my second blood test. My hormone number is rising normally. The hormone level last week was 207 and the number today is 2,539. So far so good! I am feeling well - just very tired and sometimes crampy, which they say is also normal. Once again God has shown me that my worrying does nothing. He is in control and I just need to sit back and let Him handle it. Thank you all again for your thoughts, encouragement, and prayers!!

One step closer to our miracle!

Mother's Day is a day I have dreaded for the past three years of my life. But that changed in an instant today, the day after "Mother's Day." Yes, I got the call at 10 a.m. this morning - "you are so pregnant" were nurse Missy's exact words! The first time I have ever heard those precious words! My hormone number is great and now we just have to keep praying. We have weekly blood tests until the first ultra sound, to make sure the hormone level is increasing. Yes, more waiting, which is why we are still cautious. One step at a time, but one step closer...God is good!!

Another one...

Just a quick update - had my transfer on Tuesday. Everything went smoothly, as usual. The doctor told us we had three out of four "perfect" embryos and they transferred all four. More waiting, but it's hard to get my hopes up. Just going to turn it over to God, carry on with our lives, and look forward to our trip to Monterey next weekend! Can't wait! :)

Praise You in the Wait

I didn't want to get out of bed - didn't want to face the day.
This pain of infertility - it takes my breath away.

It seems everyone around me is sharing their good news,
But every month the disappointment reminds me what I lose.

I'm not complaining, God, for I know You hear my plea.
I know You have my best in mind, even when I fail to see.

I'm just being honest with you, God, and I know that You don't mind.
I want You to search my heart, even when I'm afraid of what You'll find.

I want my motives to be pure when asking You for such a treasure.
I don't want a baby for selfish reasons so I can receive the pleasure.

So I'll wait on You with faith and when my fear persists,
I'll ask You for the strength to stand no matter what Your answer is.

I'll praise You because of who You are and my heart will rest assured,
Because of the depth of Your perfect love I know I can endure.
- Darlene Suter

Still not our time

Blood test today negative.
I know many of you probably don't know what to say to us after you hear the bad news (especially for the hundredth time). But the truth is, saying nothing is best. Just your unconditional love and friendship is wonderful. All you can really do is be there for us if we want to talk or need a shoulder to cry on. We have awesome friends and family. Feel free to post comments on here whenever you want - I love reading them :)