Praise You in the Wait

I didn't want to get out of bed - didn't want to face the day.
This pain of infertility - it takes my breath away.

It seems everyone around me is sharing their good news,
But every month the disappointment reminds me what I lose.

I'm not complaining, God, for I know You hear my plea.
I know You have my best in mind, even when I fail to see.

I'm just being honest with you, God, and I know that You don't mind.
I want You to search my heart, even when I'm afraid of what You'll find.

I want my motives to be pure when asking You for such a treasure.
I don't want a baby for selfish reasons so I can receive the pleasure.

So I'll wait on You with faith and when my fear persists,
I'll ask You for the strength to stand no matter what Your answer is.

I'll praise You because of who You are and my heart will rest assured,
Because of the depth of Your perfect love I know I can endure.
- Darlene Suter

Still not our time

Blood test today negative.
I know many of you probably don't know what to say to us after you hear the bad news (especially for the hundredth time). But the truth is, saying nothing is best. Just your unconditional love and friendship is wonderful. All you can really do is be there for us if we want to talk or need a shoulder to cry on. We have awesome friends and family. Feel free to post comments on here whenever you want - I love reading them :)